Done.

Lately, I haven't been the same. I'm realizing it too. I feel like I'm going back into bad habits. I feel like a big part of me is missing. Something that kept me away from the bad decision making that I'm doing now. This isn't me, cause I know I can do way better than all of my surroundings. I mean, yeah.. I love going out. I love meeting new people and all of that, but yeahh.. you get me. This is the crazy life I like to live, but I need to get held down at the same time also. I'm not saying I want someone to hold me down, but I want someone to be able to do so without me even realizing it, and without it being intentional. I'm also not saying I'm looking for anything, cause that's the last thing I'm doing. It's me time. I lost something important to me, and I gotta learn the hard way. But I understand the fact that all good things come to an end. I'm taking this let down casually. Don't get me wrong, I miss you a lot, but after talks we've had, I'm gonna stop trying. Not for me, but for you. Cause it's what you want, and I can't burden your life anymore. Just like you said that all you wanted was for me to be happy.. well, I'm returning the favor. I'm gonna be happy for you no matter what decisions you make, cause I'm tired of being selfish over you. I'm gonna keep my head up, and hope for the better things. Just know I still care and will for as long as I can. Underneath, I'm still the same exact girl that I was before. Wednesdays, movies, Chipotle, car cruising, "Best I Ever Had", stupid jokes, good laughs, your goodnight and goodmorning. And I hope this proves how sorry I am. I'm not asking for anything in return, I just want people to know that you weren't just anyone. Stay up.

On the brighter side of things.. Here's a couple blogTV videos from last night.

jaz - Broadcast your self LIVE


teiut - Broadcast your self LIVE