Dahilwidit.

So, I'm not that good with words.. But I just wanted to let you know that I do really care about you. I just wish that it didn't always have to be like.. this. I always feel like I'm making you sad or something, but can you blame me? The way you come off about things sometimes, just really.. bugs. The way you would always talk about other girls-etc. only pushed me away. Your friendship though, is something that I really value and cherish. I can't tell you how much it means to me. I wouldn't try to keep our friendship this strong, by hanging out with you everyday and talking to you as much as I can. I wouldn't have brought you closer to my family, or have even acted like I gave a shit, if I didn't want you here. I know for a fact that you are one of those people I would fight for to be in my life, because well.. people like you just don't swing by all the time. I'm glad that you're in my life-glad that you still strive to be the best to me that you can be. It makes me happy that you care that much. Even if I choose to do whatever I wanna do.. I'm still gonna be the same for you. I'm still gonna be my embarrassing self around you cause I know all we do is have good laughs and good times. Nothing's going to change for me. I just hope you don't change your mind about our friendship. For now, I need us to be how we are, and keep being this way for a while. I know you're trying to prove to me that you're changing, but I also know that I've been in this situation before. I'm not ready. Especially with our friendship this strong. I know relationships only ruin everything.. most of the time. Just please, whatever you do, don't change. Please..


P.S.
I can't believe how shady everything is..
Let's take a second to think things through. Let's look at people's past mistakes-including mines, and let's see where it got us. Let's look at how it messed up way too many good things. Don't let one silly little excitement conquer what's really important. Trust me, it's not worth it. I'm just really disappointed. I don't know what to believe anymore.. This isn't the first time either, and I just can't believe how hypocritical it is. Stay away from temptation, lust, whatever it may be, because boys come and go. Don't let yourself slip too quick.